I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me
Yesterday night, I was thinking about you again. It has been two more years since the last phone call I made. This post might be prohibited to publish out, as everything is changed. But I am really tired of crying late at the night, tired of feeling sorry, tired over lost love and good time. Every time look at our picture, one by one the tears dropped, wipe away and pretending that I am not crying by saying I am just feeling tired because of the boring lecture class. I hide it deep inside my heart and never let others know, or I should say, I have no the right to say anymore. . I was the one made thing wrong, or it maybe doesn't wrong at all, because you had found your true love now...I should happy with it. I am just nothing to you now. What I can do is just bless you, a sincerely blessing..Part of loving is learning to let go, that's what you had taught me. They always say forget the past, put it behide you, live in the present and look for the future. What's done is done and it is over now. So they tell me. But how can I live in a life without a past?My pass, my memories are what made me. How could I forget them? There is regret, there is remorse. How can I forgive myself? They said it's just a matter of time. " Time heals all the wounds. Forgiveness is not a long lasting experience. It's a turning point in life, after all the experience does not cause you pain any more." I think what I need now is Time. I only can wait until the day when it will not matter to me anymore. The day it will happen that I will forgive myself.
Last Sunday when I was still sleeping, I received the phone call from yeap, picked up it with not really noticing, felt a bit irritated and still argued want to sleep five more minutes. Yea...that is my bad habit, keep requiring to sleep five more minutes, sometimes really hard to drag myself out of the bed.
He woke me up and informed me that, our classrep Ahpang had sent us an email which is about the time schedule for the coming weeks. Yea..that mail really shake off my drowsy sleep...
Week 6 (6 July- 12 July 2009) 7/07 1400-1500 Auditing Mid Term (T1-12) 8/07 0800-0900 Auditing Mid Term (T13-18) ** Lecture 1-5 ** 25 MCQs, bring pencil and pen
Yesterday was my first time to attend AGM which held by Career Development Club, I learned that how the AGM running...and realized how important the social networks are...yes...I've to admit that I am still shallow and new...sometimes even not willing to face realistic, but i have no choice, I had to learn the social networking skills and establish it for my future growth...and surviving in the community...=(
This was my first time to organize orientation activity...
I was really excited when received the phone call from DSA officer who informed me that i was successfully recruited as a committee of orientation events.
Actually City Tour is one of the activity during the orientation week. It offer a chance for new students to get to know and become familiar with all the place they need to go.So let me introduce our lovely committee to you guys =P
As you can see from the picture, the tallest girl stand at the left hand side is Shirley, the girl next to her is me, following up are Suying, Elise and Adeline.
Here is our booth ^^nice right?
So let's start our journey =)
Our first station is Gua Tempurung
Gua Tempurung is one of the majestic white marble cave and largest limestone cave in Malaysia. It is believed to have existed since 8000 B.C .
The first time we reached Gua Tempurung.
The second station are Sam Pog Tong, Nan Tian Tong and Ling Xian Tong.
Sam Poh Tong was developed by buddhist community and now has become an international tourist spot to attract visitors.
Tortoise pond, a place where we can feed tortoise with the "kang kong" vegetables.
Next, we move on the Kwan Yin Tong.
Another famous cave in Perak, the temple has a wishing tree well for those seek for better fortune.
The temple is base on Japanese style design, which makes it unique.
Like this...
Here is our last destination, Kellie's Castle.The unfinished mansion was built by a Scottish planter William Kellie Smith for his wife Agnes many years ago.The construction started in 1915 and stopped in 1926 dued to sudden death of the owner. It is believe that the castle is haunted and there are secret rooms and underground tunnels within the mansion.
The first time we went to Kellie's Castle for doing survey before the trip.
Love committee...
Our city tour 2009 family =)
Because of you all, orientation week became meaningful to me ^^, love you all !! cheers~~